A Story Worth Telling

Several years ago I became infatuated with a scrapbooking movement called Project Life.  Part of what I loved was the emphasis of looking at daily activities versus just looking at the big event moments.   I tried it, and quickly learned that I had a hard time keeping up with it because I saw that my days were the same – it was hard for me to find new things to put in the book…it all seemed mundane.  And the same.  I went the same places, had the same views, did the same things over and over.

I felt like my story was not worth telling.

So I shelved the idea, used the materials in different ways, but I never let go of the idea that I wanted to document the everyday.  When the idea of moving happened, I thought this may be it – new environment, new people, new routines.  But at the end of the day, I still find it to be too routine.  Maybe because I spend most of my time working, sitting at my desk.

So this weekend I am taking a break.  Letting go of the routine and getting out there to see what the area has to offer.  Getting my camera out and seeing things in a new way.  And most importantly, telling my new story.  It is worth telling.

 

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Week 9 – Holy cow I have been here a long time

I can’t even believe that it has been 9 weeks since I got here in Orange.   So much has happened and yet so much has not happened since I have been here.  So here is a recap of the last few weeks:

1.  My mom, her friend Bev and I went to the Madison Va Street Festival.  So much fun – very small town and I loved every minute of it.  Tomorrow we are going to the Orange Street Festival.  I love that part of living here.

2.  I finally got my bed frame this week – after weeks of sleeping on a mattress on the floor, last night was the first night in my real bed. Big thanks to my Aunt Barbara and my mom for bringing it down and helping to assemble it.

3.  I was in Leesburg the last 2 weekends and will be here the next 2 weekends.  I am hoping to finish the unpacking while I am here.

4.  I auditioned and had my first rehearsal for my new choir – Bel Canto Vocal Ensemble.  I am excited about it and I can’t wait to be singing again.

5.  I met a couple of my neighbors in the last week.  Not a real meet – just a quick hi, nice to meet you kind of thing.  But I love that I am starting to meet more people here.

6.  I will be back at Culpeper Baptist this weekend.   Can’t wait to try out the new pastor and see what a normal weekend is usual.

I am really happy here.  I can’t believe I am saying it – but I love it so far.

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Week 5 and 6 – Orange you glad…

Things here in Orange have been crazy busy!  Mostly work things and so I won’t bore you with details, but it has been kicking my butt lately and it seems like it will continue for some time.  So here is the quick shot of what has been happening:

1.  I took the ALS Ice Bucket Challenge this week.  I posted the video on Facebook.  Not only is ALS a client of mine at work, but my high school choir director had ALS.  She died several years ago, and while I won’t pretend to have great high school memories of her, I remember how frightening it seemed that her body would paralyze her while her mind still was sharp.  I can’t imagine much worse.

2.  I almost have all of my furniture in the apartment – I am so close.  :)

3.  I have not seen J in a long time.  Too long.  Tonight I will remedy that.

4.  What I really need is a full 2 or 3 days to spend on my apartment.  Organizing, cleaning, moving, etc.  Even though I have not see J in too long, I still have not had a chance to spend much time on the place…and there is so much stuff to do.

5.  I got to go to work last week and see everyone and then we had the company picnic and I spent some time with mom over the weekend before heading home.  And I got to see a movie with Lynn and Crystel – not a bad way to spend the weekend.

6. This weekend I get to see Sara and Micah!  So happy!

7.  When I use my home phone to call people, caller ID just says “ORANGE”.  So that is my new name now.  :)

8.  Speaking of Orange, I finished Orange is the New Black 2 seasons in about 1.5 weeks.  And I am about to start reading the book.    Anyone else addicted?

9.  Finally, I am starved for conversation.  Most days I fight the urge to talk to the walls.  So if you ever need to chat…I amy be your girl.

 

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Fairytales and being 40

I have been thinking about this post for a while and trying to decide how I wanted to tackle it.    Mostly the decisions have been how to make this a celebration of something and not a defeatist kind of post where people start to feel sorry for me or offer up words of encouragement.

At 40, I had just about given up on the idea of getting married.  The young impulsive carefree ideal of getting married at least.  I realized I will never been that 20 year old who feels like life is not worth living without that certain someone.  I will never be the 25 year old woman who meets a guy in a bar or is introduced by friends in what is called a “meet cute” in the movies.

I don’t need someone to rescue me from my life…while it is not perfect, it is the life that I built.  I don’t need someone to be my everything…it is not possible.   I don’t need someone to sweep me off my feet and treat me like a princess…at this age it is easier to see reality in yourself and in others and not expect more.  I don’t need the kind of fairytale that is taught to us when we are young…I don’t need to believe in perfection anymore.  I don’t need someone to complete me.

What I do want and need is someone I can talk to.  Someone who makes me laugh.  Someone who accepts my flaws as I accept his.  Someone who has the same values as I do.   Someone who pushes me out of my comfort zone and who challenges my preconceptions – about myself and the world.  Someone who shows me in small ways and big ways that I am important to them and who can accept the same from me.  Someone who makes the choice during the hard times to stay…cause in the end…that is the only thing that lasts.

 

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Week 4 – The end is in sight

So tomorrow marks 4 weeks since I moved to Orange.  There are so many good things about being here.  I feel like I don’t talk about them enough.  So here you go:

  1. I love love love having my own space.  I can put things where I want them and they won’t move before I come back for them.
  2. It is so quiet here in Orange.  And not quiet like in Woodbridge where you can still hear cars outside…I mean quiet like only the country can be.
  3. People here are a lot nicer than at home.  Stores and restaurants and just people in general seem to be a whole lot nicer.
  4. I am more calm here.  I used to drive around the DC area and mumble “I hate people”…now I don’t really hate people – I just hate the selfish, mean way that people act on the road.  But here, I don’t say that – it wasn’t until I had to drive back to NOVA that it happened again.
  5. I am quickly getting to the point where I don’t need to buy anything else for the apartment – I am close but it still seems that daily I find something I still need.  Having said that, I am getting to use some things I have never had a place for.   For instance, I hung a print today that I bought in 2006 and have never hung or even gotten framed.
  6. I am also realizing how many things I have that I may not need.  That can only mean 1 thing – purge will be coming.
  7. Without cable TV, I am binge watching Hulu and Netflix and working my way through my DVD/Blu-Ray collection.  Finally.
  8. I sleep better here.  I go to sleep earlier on average and I wake up without an alarm clock every day.  I feel like I am finally living on my natural sleep rhythms – sleep when tired and wake when ready to be up.
  9. I don’t use my car that often…and for someone who spent a lot of time driving, that has been a really good thing for my stress level.
  10. I am more focused and more active here than I have been in the past.

I want to thank everyone for their well wishes.  I feel like the beginning is now.  I will leave you with – I found a new sign for my wall, it say “Live the life you always imagined”.  I am heading in that direction.

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When you question…

I visited a new church this weekend.  There was a lot of good stuff there – nice friendly people, relaxed environment, clear bible following and a knowledge that community is important for believers.  All things I have been looking for.

There were as things that were, well not troubling, but things that made me wonder if it was the right place.  It is very very small, the service is traditional to the point of apologizing for the VBS music (which was contemporary), and (while I know I have been spoiled by the pastor at my home church) it was a little difficult to listen to the pastor speak as he kept stumbling over his words.

I am not sure it is my new church home, but I am not opposed to going back to visit and give it another try.

There was one thing that the pastor said said however, that made me pull out my bible at home and take a look at the scripture to make sure that what he said was accurate (which I didn’t believe it was).  And while his misinterpretation was not egregious and it certainly didn’t change the sermon in any way, it did make me look it up when I got home.  And sure enough, I was right – he had misspoken on that particular scripture.

I will forever be grateful to Pastor Ray Bearden at FBCW who was the one that really enforced that it is important to not just listen to speakers but to take the time to look up the things you learned in the source material – whether to fact check or to expand learning.

 

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Week 3 – I just want it all to be done

Major progress this week on the apartment – my couch was delivered, I bought and assembled 2 bookcases to house my craft items (finally!!), I bought a few additional things to help organize my office/work stuff, and my “to get” list is getting considerable shorter.

But not fast enough. :)

At least not fast enough for me.  I still have things at my mom’s house that need to come down here.  I still need to find forever homes for some of the things I own.  I still need to finish unpacking the items that will fill the shelves I bought and assembled today.

Impatient…why yes I am :)

This week I found myself restless more than once.  I found myself having to get out of the apartment after working 3 or 4 nights this week…just to get out.  Just to escape.  I am in the same space every day all day and all night.   I need to find a better way to deal with being here – hobbies (once unpacked), reading – something.

My mom and I went out today to antique/junk stores and I was reminded that I want to spend some time out with my camera soon…that may be sooner rather than later…like tomorrow sooner if I can’t find something to do.

Good week – impatient week – but a good week overall.

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