Last night was not a great night for me…I didn’t feel well for the first time in a while and I am pretty sure it was connected to food this past week. I had an off week – out of schedule, unusual foods, eating out more than normal and while I didn’t overeat, it was not the regimented eating I have been doing since the surgery.
I was watching YouTube and came across a video about 10 things someone had wish they had known before having Gastric Sleeve. And it got me thinking about what I wish I had know before I started all of this. So I am sharing with you today my list of 10 Things I Wish I Had Known Before Gastric Bypass:
1. I have forgotten (for now) what it feels like to have real physical hunger. I know this will change over time, but I struggle more mentally than I do physically when it comes to hunger. I tend to eat on a more scheduled timeline now vs whenever I am hungry. I am no longer living to eat but instead feel like for the first time I am eating to live. And that is not a bad thing.
2. I wake up happier in general. This has been an odd side effect that I am not sure if I can attribute to any one thing. And I certainly don’t wake up happy every morning. But more often than not, I wake up rested (meaning I am sleeping better) and happier.
3. I don’t hurt as much as I used to overall. My joints feel better in general and while I still have some bad days, or moments, I am much better than I was.
4. When the doctor tells you a small percentage of patients have a certain complication, pay attention…it could be you. I didn’t really listen very well and then it was me…and now I regret not paying attention.
5. Some of the side effects are completely unexpected. For me the oddest is that no matter what I do, I can’t get warm most of the time. This is not something I was warned about but had read that it could happen in the early months. I am 4.5 months in and my apartment is set at 71 degrees and I am freezing. Craziness considering I was ALWAYS hot before.
6. Something happens when you see the pounds fall off that you may not be ready for. Among those is the fact that everyone is “proud” of you now, you don’t see the weight coming off in the way other people do, and at times your body feels both foreign and familiar at the same time.
7. The first time you are able to do something that you were not able to before, you will want to do it all of the time. I have NEVER been able to sit in a chair and cross my legs until now. It seems so simple, but I was never able to. I actually have to train my legs to be able to do it comfortably as it is so foreign to my body. And now, I am doing it just because I can.
8. The routines are harder to break than the physical addictions at times. Now to be honest, I think I knew this before the surgery but I underestimated it greatly. My go-to boredom thing was food. My “watch a movie” night involved snacks. Driving in the car, meant a trip through the drive through. A trip to any store usually involved seeing if they had anything to snack on (you would be surprised how many stores that includes).
9. Sitting all day is almost impossible now. I have to get up. I have to move. I have to not be at my desk all day.
10. The process is more overwhelming than you can imagine. When they say it is a whole life change, I thought I understood what that meant. I didn’t. There is virtually no part of my everyday life that is the same as it relates to my physical being. I don’t know if you can imagine that, but it is the most intense thing I have ever done.
And I will add a bonus #11:
11. The mental game is 100,000 times harder than the physical one. I cry in the shower every day now as my hair falls out. I want so badly to have a doughnut but can’t. I miss bread daily. I have lost my voice which is unbelievably difficult as it has always been my emotional release. I am trying to be patient…most of this is temporary (not the doughnuts probably) but it is a lot.
I want to thank everyone who has listened to me moan about this choice I made and who has cheered me on from the sidelines. Love you all.