Well there has been a lot going on. A lot. Last week I was in Disney with the family. I "celebrated" my 6 month anniversary with Scott, and could not wait to get home. Then Monday it all fell apart. Scott called it off. And I wish I could articulate this all…I am not mad at him. I am sad. And confused. And a bit bewildered. But I’m not mad. I want him to find what he is looking for, with or without me. And I hope that someday we can be friends. But I can’t right now.
The rug has been pulled out. It took me 35 years to find him and now it is over. So God…what is this all about? You have a plan, right? Just make my path a little clearer right now…Just make me understand.
And help me say goodbye. Help me put it behind me. Please.