I have been confronted several times with questions about my own identity and my identity as others see me. And while I know my identity in God is what matters, I still find myself concentrating on how others view me and how I view myself. A more evolved Michelle would be able to concentrate on Him, but I am not her yet. (Did I really just use my name in the third person?)
Last night I was introduced by my pastor to someone and he started by talking about my singing, then my service to various ministries in the church and he briefly touched on my salvation story in between. I was an interesting introduction. Not because it was bad…a little embarassing but not bad…just interesting and a little out of context for the group I was with. But it laid clear who I was in my pastors’ eyes. A singer, a servant and child of God. Probably not in that order. 🙂
Those are labels I can live with. There are others I struggle with: diva, has a chip on her shoulder, unfriendly, overly-emotional, self-important. I am sure I have had moments of all of those, but I like to think that I don’t live there. Correct me if I am wrong. I see myself more as: shy, withdrawn, self-conscience, worried and well, maybe a little bit of a chip on my shoulder.
Gives me a lot to think about.