When I made the decision to leave FBCW this past spring, I did so knowing that the time it would take to find and acclimate to a new church would be rough. It is never easy to start over…especially when you are “not good” with new people. I have spoken often about being awkward with people I don’t know well…it takes me some time to get to know people and for the most part, I am ok with that. If you stick around for the long haul, you will get to know me pretty well.
But this proclivity to shyness makes it difficult to walk into a church where I know no one each week. I have found myself having to force myself to go each week. To get out and make the effort. And I have learned a few things along the way:
1. I knew it would be important that I established the correct church for me prior to getting too involved in any specific activity. What I did not know if how hard that would be. You meet people by getting involved. And then it is hard to determine if the church is the right one for you. Vicious cycle.
2. I miss singing. Even as irregular as it was, I miss it. But, we are back to #1…I need to verify this is the right church for me before I get involved in something like that.
3. Community is important to me. I knew that when I left and I know it even more now. I am starting to make the first steps to find community at the new church. And I will have to report back.
4. Finally, change sucks. We all know it. It does make it easier. But, I have found that you can adapt to the idea that things are changing. That is where I am now.