I was listening to a CD I had made a while ago and came across an old favorite song of mine – “How Did You Find Me Here?” by David Wilcox. I first of this song, and this artist, in college when a friend introduced me to the album. And this song, always has struck me. I am sure it could be interpreted in many different ways, but I have always chosen to see it like this: it is about someone who is trying in vain to hide who they are from someone. But the someone always seems to “know”.
I think I love this song so much now because it is the perfect story of my journey with God. I have over the years tried to hide who I am – convinced that He will not be happy with the real me – only to find that at every turn, in every corner, and always at the right time, He was there.
My favorite lines of the song are these: “I couldn’t reach for rescue, I hid myself from you, I couldn’t stand to see me From your point of view. Cause I knew I’d disappoint you, If I showed to you this child, Who is crying out inside me, Lost in the wild”
How many times have I tried to be something other than what He made me to be and justified it by saying that no one would want the real me? How many times have I heard that God loves me just a I am, as He made me, only to say it couldn’t possibly be so? How many times did I pretend that there was no help available to me, when the truth was I was trying so hard to hide that I missed the help provided?
You can hear the song here.
“I feel you behind me, but how did you find me here?”