Peace in the Unknown

I don’t write much anymore.  Things have been busy and it seems like when I get the urge to write, there is just not the time or the inclination to make it happen.  Part of it has been stress – when I am stressed, I want to sleep all of the time.  That “too tired” feeling permeates all aspects of my life and lethargy becomes a way of life.

Recently, I have been contemplating making some changes…stress and emotions have heightened to this frenzy of crying and breakdowns that are not attractive and not necessary.  When I feel myself getting that way, first I retreat (not heard much from me…this is probably why) and then I reach out selectively to those I know can handle it (thanks to Penny for fielding the last one) and then when I can’t handle anymore, I let God in.  Backwards I know.

This latest crisis has led me to a place that I love to be…but rarely am.  I am content in the not knowing.  I am sure that decisions will need to be made.  I am sure that changes will have to happen.  But right now, my God is telling me to wait it out.  And so I am.  And I have a peace about that – a calmness that passes all understanding.

For that, I am thankful.  Whether the peace is due to the need for my mind to settle first before I am ready to make changes, or if this peace is due to a God who knows that I needed to get to where I was willing to wait before He showed me the next step…I am calm.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s