So my last post was rather dark…
If you missed it, I wrote about this crippling self doubt that is haunting my work life right now. I clearly have things I am working through. No surprises there. I have been in therapy for the last 6 months or so and this week we talked about work which prompted the blog post.Whenever I have a session, I spend the next week or so going over and over the things we talked about – there is usually something that stays with me and makes me think all week.
I realized this week that God is sifting me and my job is the easiest way to reach me right now. At 41 it is hard to imagine that I still carry so much from my past, but there it is. And to make me a whole and complete person, He is working to get me to process those things and get them out of my system. It is painful and most days I wish I could just be “normal”.
But what is normal?
I am excited to see what this sifting will bring out in me. I can only hope that I learn the lesson sooner rather than later 🙂