This past week I had to replace the brakes on the car I bought in June. I had just hit 25000 miles and the mechanic said the amount of rust on my roters looked like brakes that were 8 to 9 years old – not 2. This was a manufacturing issue, and at this point, I am just glad it is done. It is disappointing however since this should have never happened.
This came just 1 days after having to finish my root canal and hearing the estimate for the crown to be put on later this month. That is all out of pocket and I will be paying that off for a while.
Pile this on top of the medical bills – which for now are just co-pays but coming into the new year will start to add up quickly – and debt is looming that I am not quite sure I am ready for. I am hoping that when this initial stuff is all over and I am feeling better – lost weight, easier on the knees and a lot more stamina – may mean that I start to look for a second job to fill in some of the gaps I am having to take on during this time. The only thing I can say for sure is it is a good thing I have no social life here so I am not spending a lot of money on going out. 🙂
Despite how dire I am making this sound, I am in pretty good spirits these days – at least in the overall picture of things. I have bad days and sometimes when a new hit comes, I take a moment to get upset. I cry, I may say a few choice words, and I may even have some gnashing of teeth. But in the end, I don’t feel overtaken by it for long. That I believe is due to a couple of things. The strength of the love and support I have been getting from friends and family far and wide and the love and grace of a God who values me more than I can imagine.
So I am a little battered and a little bruised. But I am still moving forward. And momentum is taking me to where I need to be.