I was telling my mom about a difficulty I was having and assuring her I was ok, and she said “it’s just a season.” Seasons came up again this past weekend in Sunday School class. So here I am reflecting on the season I am in.
Financial – I am in debt repayment mode and so money is tighter than I would like it to be. Am I broke? Nope. I have enough to pay the bills but there is not a lot left over once that is done. It will ease up eventually, but I am focused on the debt and getting it paid down – on time and in full – so that I don’t have to deal with it for years to come. It is not a bad place to be – just not the where I want to be.
Spiritually – I am finding a hunger again and while I am not sure it is manifesting as much as it should on the outside, is something I can feel happening on the inside and it is slowly changing me. And that is a good thing.
My Health – speaking of hunger, I am straining to make changes to my diet and I fail more than I like. I fail a lot more than I like. Embarrassingly so. But as my friend Liz says – progress not perfection. I am making better choices more often. And I think eventually, it will come to a place where the bad choices are the ones hard to make. For now, I am struggling a bit through the “how” and the “when” and the “what”. I know the why.
Exercise is a whole other issue. I know that eventually I will come to feel better from the exercise, but it sucks right now. I am in pain every day and my body is not taking it well at all. Partially I worry that I am not doing something correctly (but really it is just riding the bike and some weight training) but mostly, it is just that I am so out of shape that I find it hard to function when I push my body to do this.
Work – has been a challenge…but in the best possible way. Even though I feel a bit out of my depth sometimes, it is pushing me and I am learning again. I love learning new things.
Relationships – are good…steady…consistent. I love that right now. I am not necessarily making new friends but the ones I have are great and I am building with what I already have.
Creative – this is stalling. I am not creating because my craft room is in shambles. I need a professional organizer but really, I just need to make some decisions and so much has been happening that I keep putting it off. I have no one to blame but me. But seriously, if you love to organize and would help me for free – let me know. It is killing me right now.
All in all things are good. I love living here. I have a good life. The season is being good to me.